A bitter, destructive feud

The Power Of one ?

2010-09-28T23:48:00.001+08:00

The Ninety-Nines... That’s what I call ‘em. Ninety-nine out of a hundred people can’t fathom what I do. They scratch their heads, can’t believe my dedication to this great sport. Many don’t even think this a sport or that I have a life. Never let others define your ‘life’ for you. This is what I have chosen. This is the road I’ve taken, with all the potholes, bumps, and turns. The Ninety-Nines, they can’t commit 100% to being their best, to step up one day and stand tall among the giants.

There are those who rely on luck,and those who don't know meaning of the word.
I don’t play the lottery. I don’t have the winning ticket. Everything I have, I busted my ass for. The only thing I ever got handed to me are the genetics my old man passed down. From him, I learned the value of a work ethic and getting your hands dirty. To those who’ve always wanted more, stand with me. We are few and we must stand on the mountaintops to be heard. When the day is done, our voices will carry. It shall be a call to all those who have always dreamed of something greater.To the naysayers, I say your words will fall on deaf ears. To the doubters, take your misgivings elsewhere. To the envious, do not desire what we will achieve. I will beat back mediocrity with a fierce hand, will demolish conformity, so that when it’s time to cash in my chips, I won’t leave a legacy of regret, that I didn’t go for mine. In each one of us lies the power to start something... So to those of you out there who can hear, let me say again, who are you and will you stand with me

Mirror, mirror

2010-09-27T01:12:00.001+08:00

Who are you? Who am I? Depends on who you ask. Some see nothing more than a mindless monster, an egotistical freak of nature to be pitied or feared. Others see a man guided by a singular purpose. Who am I? As I stand under this hot light and look into this mirror, I see a monster and a man. But I also see a bullied fat kid. A son looking up to his old man. A youth in search of a road. I’ve since found that road and soon, I’ll know how far I’ve gone and who next I’ll become.

Whatcha' Looking at?

2010-09-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

Other people get greeting cards full of nice words. I get looks... All kinds, all day long. It’s like living in a cage. Different looks carry different sentiments. Some are friendly. Others aren’t. Whenever I catch a certain look from a kid new to the sport, I remember how I used to walk past this one gym every evening. Each time, I’d stop and look through the glass that separated me from the big boys training with incomprehensible weights. I was intimidated but deep down, I knew I belonged there. When I finally got the courage to join, I was at the bottom of the food chain looking up.Today, if I could look back and see my face as that young kid who walked into the gym for the first time, I’ll tell you what I’d see. A little fear mingled with something greater. Hunger... A face burning with desire... A kid who had something to prove and wanted all the world to know it. In the years between, I’ve learned a couple things. First, the only person you have anything to prove to is yourself. Second, you can watch life with your nose pressed up against the glass. Or you can swing the doors open and step inside.

Fear loathing disgust

2010-09-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

Fear mingled with loathing. When I’m out in the world, this is what I see reflected in the eyes of others as they pass by. They only see a massive miscreant, a disgusting freak of nature, an ego run amok. They often stop and stare. But you wanna know what? They don’t really see me. While they see a freakshow, an abomination, I am an afterthought. I am invisible

This happens so often, I sometimes look in the mirror to make sure I’m still there. No, I am not a shadow. I am not invisible. In the mirror, I see skin, bone, muscle, sinew. I see the potential, the genetics my old man handed down. But there is also fear. Fear mingled with doubt. I look and wonder if I can shoulder the crushing burden of my own expectations

Only three weeks in and another fifteen to go, I stand here looking for signs of progress. After all the sacrifices, the early mornings, the meals, what stands before me is a man striving for something more. Behind the fear and doubt, a fire burns fierce with determination. Yeah, I see a man unsure of what’s out there. But that’s not gonna turn me away.

Makin' Change.

2010-09-14T23:45:00.001+08:00

So yesterday I’m in the supermarket picking up a couple things & as I check out, the cashier hands me my change. I dump ‘em into my pocket. We do a lot of things without thinking twice and everywhere, the change starts accumulating--in cars, coat pockets, wherever. Why worry about a couple coins--they’re not worth much, right? Wrong. Listen up brothers... All that change’ll add up to hundreds. It may not happen overnight, but it will eventually. You just gotta have the patience to see the big picture. In the gym, it’s like time unfolds in front of me. After all, time is all I do have... Time to do things right, time to take my time. In here, I won’t shortchange myself by cuttin’ corners--can’t afford to with three weeks to go. In here, the change I’m making comes in denominations of 45s... And with every weighted pullup, every last set, my change jar is slowly fillin’ up

what goes around

2010-09-14T23:35:00.001+08:00

The bullies who chased me... You strengthened my resolve. The haters who said I’d fail... I am still here. Those who fell to the earth thinking they were the only star above... The night sky is ablaze with lights. My old man... Yeah, this is for the one who not only gave me his name, but more... I’ve felt your hand on my shoulder each day and it has guided me. This is for all those who believed. For eighteen weeks, I have toiled outside of society, on a fixed and lonely path. Now, I have come full circle, back to where I started. Here... This place. Yeah, life is like that. As I sit on the edge, on the threshold, what I’ve learned is that this journey is not a straight line. And the plates on each side of me, they support me. They hold me in place, like bookends around the story that is my life... And the next chapter is about to unfold...

no-idea

2010-09-01T23:49:00.004+08:00

Ok after my job done and start slacking like god-also-got-no-idea what to do.Very much seeing a monster in the mirror everyday. Clothing doesn't felt the same like before. Not as comfortable as it used to be. It's such a pain to see this hideous creature everyday in the mirror. With much anger and frustration. Is this what people call as self-denial? I couldn't bear to see this horrendous everyday in my life. I must get rid of him no matter what. Discipline is what I needed now.

final result

2009-09-04T16:34:00.004+08:00

pm me in msn.

Full Parking @ One Utama

2009-07-27T00:16:00.007+08:00

Planned dinner with my coursemate at 1utama today but then we forget today its sunday are always full park and being force i have to take out my credit card swipe for vip parking omfbbq

this is my 2nd time swiped the card,then we start patrol around vip area mostly we see its rich humans car -,-",theres only our car lousiest view KIA Spectra LOL

After dinner and i go home pass receipt to my dad.....

DAD: WTF? VIP PARKING RM10 again?U KNOW NORMAL PARKING JUST RM1 U CAN PARK 10 TIMES! SON U DUN MAKE ME BAN U AR I TELL YOU
SON: OKOKOK XD

New baby coming soon

2009-07-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

will see you in 2010 in europe/japan.. here i come !

most slack week

2009-07-01T15:51:00.005+08:00

lecturer on leave for a week; what r we doing for this week activities?

1. Scripting update daily + update project + revise for semi final exam everyday 9am
2. Recess as usual 10.30 - 11.00 am
3. Back to class continue revise work + Lecture Junior classes
4. Break time 1.00pm - 2pm
5. Back to class slack
6. 5pm go home

Drive home and do whatever important.

1. Dragonica till 12am
2. wait Email news from City University of New York- City College , North America
3. 12am Revise subject semi final exam
4. 1am - 1.30am bumping 10 times then sleep =)

A better Life

2009-06-18T19:21:00.004+08:00

okay…finally we had the chance to sit down and thrash things out… feel so paiseh everyday fall asleep in the car twice with many eyes staring and me! Starving from hunger as didnt eat lunch but its worth it =).

Perhaps fate didnt want me to get together with her. buts its ok..im standing up! Well at least i could pick watever courage that i have and still remain as the good ol “baba” that i am..and continue to function as a baba.. haha…

but i really didnt know i was so readable! i could infrared things into her mind omg =x but..all is over now and it is worth it..

If i had a chance to turn the clock backwards..i will still choose this path..but with different moves to try to get you to accept me =)

P.S : I would like to thank my coursemate for being there to wake me up.. Hey you are a extremely good inspiration speech person..i say 1 line u can come up with 20 lines of inspiring words…somemore last so long.. =)

and i would like to thank you for chatting with me to clear all my doubts and bu gan xing ness..perhaps 1 day..i can haha..

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2009-05-31T01:54:00.003+08:00

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Random Photos; my working position

You think you know alot of yourself but u know nth about yourself

2009-05-17T23:30:00.004+08:00

somebody once told me i am a person who would just always quiet at anything treating everything around me as joke sometime..
perhaps its true, everytime something bad happens or when i feel sad, i would just false a smile and thinking that im a really suck alot as a person..
whenever i try to change and just want to keep a quiet life going on, i know i am hurting a few and isoloating myself, sometimes i wonder is that what i really want?
a noisy life with tons of thinking inside.. or a quiet life with tons of thinking but if im always quiet i could easily faux it…
damn i feel damn sucky again…

somehow if you are reading this….i been thinking what you trying to think. perhaps what i really want is a companion..however..out of something.i think i cant really seem to tell anyone what is going though my mind..even you…im sorry..but im really feeling to forget u.

-zarich

randomness

2009-05-14T19:41:00.002+08:00

tuesday and wednessday this week are a blast ! much fun time spent and much laughter shared..

theres this 1 very random post that gained alot of my attention..

an old lady picking drink cans to sell for money.
which would she prefer?
a.you giving her your empty drink can
b.you giving her 10 dollars

i'm quite certain,the answer is b.

which leads me to think....
a less fortunate person struggling to live would most prolly prefer
you to give him a big lump sum of money
then to visit him every month to give him a bag of rice in the name of love,care & share.

same logic,different scenario
i kinda conclude that people need our love,people would prefer our money.
because that's practical in this world that we're living.

but since people would not get our money straight away,they'll go for our love.
and when there's enough love,they'll slowly take our money.

well,i'm not sure if you guys understand what i'm trying to say..
an intelligent one would..
in short:
theres really not too much love in this world,it's all about the money.

to all my friends; love yourself. =)

splendid huh....

- zariche

wesak day

2009-05-10T13:29:00.003+08:00

friday to saturday = 44 hours part time -> 2 hours lunch dinner 1 hour sleep

feel like turn be monk.

to be continue

conversation with myself.

2009-04-29T17:18:00.007+08:00

har har very farneh izzit
.............................................

Hi there Sam,why are you still awake?

I've things on my mind.

Like what things that need that urgency?

Like everything.

Everything?

Not everything,I just can't sleep.

Its the mind that controls the body,what troubles the mind will trouble the body.

The mind is a everything,pretty,ugly,good,bad,happy,sad,love,hate.

So what have became of the mind?

It became restless.

Troubling issues?

Always.

Of what importance?

Trivial yet it persists.

Quarter life crisis?

Everyday is a crisis.

So what is it of you.

That is my trouble.

Of life?

What else do I have?

Question is,what will you do of it?

The same question resounds in my mind every single day.

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player. That struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more.

I don't want to take the stage.

Is that a choice?

Why wouldn't it be a choice?

It is your stage,you're the lead,everyone else is but a cast member.

I cannot live my role,I breath no life into it.

Nay,this is your show,your stage,your audience.

Shows will be criticised,audience can be loud.

What does it account for?

Naysayers,falsetongues,I am of my own.

And you shall always be.

So what have become of me.

What have become of the audience?

They want a better show?

My show is a choice for their watching.

A choice that some who watch do dearly love it.

Yet there are many who loath it.

Which show wouldn't have love and hate.

Duality?

What happened to singularity?

He is always watching,can't you see him?

I can't,he's so near,so close that I feel that I can touch him but I couldn't.

He whispers loudly yet I hear silence.

Is he the director?

He's the producer.

So what will be my time on stage?

Time? Time is only but a tool for us to organize ourselves.

Time is the only thing that we all have in abundance and yet it is the only thing that we always crave for more.

When did time started?

It never started,we took the liberty of creating it and enslaving ourselves to it.

We have from here till eternity,however well we organize it,we still face an inevitable end.

Then why bother.

Precisely,why bother.

I question existance.

Why exist when it will end?

I wonder,whether one day,I will only see darkness. That feeling,when you're having a dreamless sleep. The void,the black. Absence of light,no conciousness. Just total darkness.

It is the mind that controls the body.

Is the mind reality or is it abstract?

Blindingly real yet it is...sadly abstract.

So with death marks an end to the mind.

Is it really so.

Marks an end to reality.

An end of existance.

What after that?

I hope that I am dreaming.

Now you want a sleep with a dream.

Maybe I am.

You're not real,he is not real,she is not real.

You all are not real.

Then what is real?

Nothing is real.

And when death wakes me up,it will be a dream that is shockingly real.

A dream that will last awfully long.

A dream that I hope is worth remembering when I wake up.

Who wants to wake up from a sweetdream?

It might well turn into a nightmare.

Or a sweeter one.

I might forget all of it when i wake up.

Losing the point of having one.

Maybe I'll never wake up.

A dream that will last forever?

Yeah,and each time I wake up from one I dream of one again.

And it continues and continues.

Demeaning its existance.

It is existance.

...

Shall I sleep?

What if you don't dream.

What if I seize dreaming forever?

I wouldn't know.

Maybe like always,I will wake up.

And start to dream all over again.

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Final Fantasy AdventChildren Complete Version

2009-04-24T22:41:00.019+08:00

Trailer 1

Trailers 2

For those who watched previous version pls watch again,now square enix are getting crazy.

Download Link (Copy and Paste) : http://psp.cngba.com/psp2000/psp2000xw/2009042268648_4.shtml

New time table

2009-04-23T17:14:00.003+08:00

Every thursday to friday class = Jesus speaks; 50 students 50% are fall asleep
20% are listen mp3 20% crapping and 10% pay attention which is sit most front with lecturer in hall

subject:Core-Ability

Mr.Baoz @ 1Utama

2009-04-20T20:41:00.023+08:00

There's this newly open shop in 1 Utama that sells incredible variety of Taiwanese steamed buns.It's located just right in front of Cold Storage and Q Jelly Bakery Shop.But too bad its not mr.hubert yap open.

check taiwan website:http://www.mrbaoz.com.tw/ - duno how to read /...

Taro Custard Chocolate Roll

Onion Chicken Baoz

Viennese Cheese Baoz

Oolong Tea

Soul Garden @ 1 Utama

2009-04-13T17:51:00.018+08:00

The Restaurant

View from the other side

Prices compare

Take all you want la

Lots of sauces to choose from..

Singapore,Thai+Chopped Garlic,Korean,Local Sauce.

Cooking progress! itadakimasu !

Throw all rubbish in

Coffee Chicken taste like chocolate wtf zzz

Worse cendol

thats all for lunch,then off to bowling 3 rounds

pc fair

2009-04-11T13:01:00.005+08:00

ok, fuckup malaysian ppl still can try to con guide me wrong way how to go KLCC.
anyway nothing much to see,accesories drop like hell and resellers dont earn

this is my new mouse Razer DeathAdder Lunar white rm199; regreted to buy coz im no longer be gamers zzz.
but just i only used not more than a day;condition its still new; any souls wants to get from me can contact me +60122020279/msn:leonheart_49@hotmail.com

- sam

new semester !

2009-04-08T23:37:00.016+08:00

as usual back to normal study life;but this time my uni marketing developer fixed time table for my class everyday monday till friday 9am - 5pm.mostly i slack for 1st week few days during lecturer teaching, anyway im doing fine in uni just actually not teaching; i slack for the reason we have orientation effecting psycho-ing some of us student fall asleep LOL ;

recently semester break for 1month what i always do its dota>ro>sleep repeatly steps.

5pm after class, reached home brain loading what i can do,online whoever i msg in msn mostly are away/ignored/avoid me/already started dota-ing or whatever wtf what i can do ! no assignment , presentation whatever /zzz

-Sam

random post

2009-04-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

im doing fine, my hand recovering and keep feel itchy

-Sam

Ching Ming the Real Day

2009-04-05T22:48:00.015+08:00

4th april 2009 saturday
ok its very suffer me and dad went to pray my dad's uncle,my great granddad and great grandma all are different cemetery to keep travel from 5am-1pm; 5am my dad wake me up ask me ready up to fetch my aunt and grandma.ok the real day i was guess thought 5-6am should be not many ppl and its a good time to go pray but end up we reach there any cemetery its full house swt;theres long story i lazy to type here just becoz my both hand now is injured damaged by burnt hellnotes and rush to go help ppl pick stuff at somewhere a spot middle deep fire for everyone to burn stuffs after that rush to hospital to check and tied bandage.so now im not use to it do something wif my both hand bandaged and cant hardcore to dota/CS keep just feeding ingame.

end here goodnights =)

peace out
- Sam

RM3k wages salary how to survive for whole family ?

2009-04-03T18:30:00.009+08:00

Let's do some simple calculations here
In Malaysia, the average family income is RM3,000 /month (where father works, mother doesn't).

I understand there are many families whosemonthly income does not reach RM3,000, but, to make things simple,let's take RM3,000 as the figure. Ok la, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son. Ngam-ngam ....

Calculation begins...

Electricity and water bill: RM100
(No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)

Phone bill : RM100
( House phone Telekom )

Handphone Credit: RM50

Meals for a happy family: RM775
(3 meals on RM25/day, RM25 for 4 persons...?)

Father eat / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155
(RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)

Car repayment: RM400
(A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)

Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam): RM300
(go to work, bring son to school,only can afford one car running)

Insurance: RM650
(kids, wife and ownself)

House repayment: RM750
(low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs,retired still have to work to pay!)

Tuition Fee: RM80
(got that cheap meh? i don't think so)

Older children pocket money @ school: RM20
(RM1/day, eat bread?)

School fees: RM30
(enough ah?)

School books and etc: RM100
(always got extra to pay in school)

Younger children milk powder: RM50
(cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive)

Miscellaneous: RM100
(shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper)

Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so

No Astro,no movie @ cinema,
no DVD,
no CD,
no online,
cannot KFC,
cannot McDonald,
cannot go Park walk during weekend (petrol expensive),
Never chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...

Calculated to total up... WALAO EH! WTF! RM3,660 already

EPF ( Employees Provident Fund ) not yet terminate, income tax somemore leh.....already RM3,660

How to survive lah ladies and gentlemen ???

Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle

How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?

Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month!!!

What is this? Inilah Malaysia Boleh... Sorry ... it should be Malaysians Boleh , because we're still alive and kicking!!

Our politicians must be mad lol

Please forward and comment boleh or tak boleh. No wonder so many Ah Loong around lah...

- Sam

Power of online game BOT company!

2009-04-02T23:14:00.005+08:00

Can you get a slack job like this? only can see this in Setiawan ( Malaysia )

- Sam

Electronic Sports World Cup 2009

2009-04-02T11:41:00.014+08:00

The 2009 season has begun and already be announcing details by March 2009. Gamers are ready for another round of the world’s most exciting e-sports championship? This year, be bringing a delegation of pro-gamers to compete against the rest of the world at the World Finals in Bercy Paris.

Go International Group Sdn Bhd, the Malaysian Licensee for ESWC 2009 will make further announcements on the revised dates for its ESWC 2009 Malaysia Grand Finals, in conjunction with Independent Youth Festival originally slated to run from 24-26 April at The Spring in East Malaysia and 27-31 May at 1 Utama Shopping Centre in West Malaysia. The dates will be announced in the first week of April 2009

For further information, visit http://www.eswc.com/ =)

Just think bout it,any team wanna participate for this year? I not really like to participate anymore maybe , just that tired and wasted my study time;maybe after graduate?

Once again good luck to Mao aka Dexter Wong Hong Siang team for dota @ kuching

Venue: High Street, 1 Utama Shopping Centre
Date: 30-31 May 2009

Qualifiers would be as followed:
24-26 April ESWC East Malaysia Qualifiers, The Spring @ Kuching
9-10 May ESWC Northern Qualifiers, Penang
23-24 May ESWC Central Qualifiers, Subang
27-31 May DIGITAL WEEK Indie Youth Fest // ESWC 2009 Malaysia Grand Finals @ High Street, 1 Utama

Stand a chance to win prizes worth RM120,000

Games which will be played will be CounterStrike 1.6, Trackmania, FiFa 09, Warcraft and Dota!! The official games this year would be Counterstrike, Trackmania & FiFa09

It is open to all gamers around to participate and win exciting prizes which would allow them to represent Malaysia in Paris,France.

To register please email to eswc@gointernationalgroup.com/indieyfest@gmail.com or even call +6012-3853638/03-77270093

- Z

New begin

2009-04-01T22:12:00.004+08:00

Still looking for gadgets , skins , wallpaper , etc more to edit.

Wallpaper - Metal Gear Solid 4 ; Beauty and the beast Corps

Skins - Normal skins

Gadgets - mixpod

will be right back

- zariche

Once upon a time

2009-03-31T17:06:00.001+08:00

To be continue ....